I don't know ...

Here I am writing yet another blog. I have so many different thoughts running thru my mind, I really don't even know where to start .. so, I will go ahead and apologize in advance if this blog is hard to follow.

Sometimes I wonder if I am just too nice for my own good. Har .. har .. I know everyone says that, but seriously though. I am the type of person that gives people too many chances - maybe I am overly optimistic and/or overly faithful who knows. I try to see the good in all people and try to treat them well - no matter what .. besides, it just saves much more time :) Don't get me wrong, I'm not perfect and have done my share of acting like a jerk .. nature of the beast .. it happens.

To be quite honest, I'm not as "social" as I seem .. for the most part, people really do get on my nerves - more than I let on. I don't like how some people will demand your attention AFTER you finally say 'you know what, it's not fun chasing you, I don't want to do this anymore' - do you people not really know what you want?

Albeit, fun can be (and usually is) relative to the company around you .. however, there are only so many nights you can spend stumbling the streets of downtown Huntsville. You're damned right you don't see me much anymore - I'm bored w/the downtown scene and tired of the feeling like my IQ drops just by being around certain people that indulge in that kind of lifestyle right now. Hey, I'm not here to judge .. do what you wanna do .. I think it is time I give my body a break from that kind of social scene.

"Any fool can make things bigger, more complex, and more violent. It takes a touch of genius - and a lot of courage - to move in the opposite direction" - Albert Einstein

So, what is this about people testing each other? Sure .. you say you have been hurt - well, who hasn't? It's all about how you handle yourself during and after the situation .. you've been hurt by someone/something .. ok .. now what are you going to do, "test" everyone that tries to come into your life all the while pushing them away w/out realizing it? It's your choice my friend .. eventually, people will get tired of the tests, games, etc. - and for the most part, they will more than likely just cut their losses and move on. For anyone interested I must admit, test me and I will fail - I think you basically set someone up for failure by "testing" them .. Maybe this is where hope and faith come into the picture.

"Life has no limitations except the one's you make" - Les Brown

Unfortunately, lying has seemingly become widely accepted .. what ever happened to just "keeping it real"? I can understand that there are just some things some people don't need to know just yet .. however, why lie about the "little" things/issues? It's time to wake up and realize that the truth will always come out - it might take a bit of time, but eventually it will surface. Oh well .. not my problem.

I guess it really just falls back to the whole everything will eventually work itself out - the way it should be - in the end. Well, I think that is enough for now - "I'm good, I think I'll just chill over here." Sooo, I will leave you w/this little bit that was fwd'ed to me in an email:

10 Important Things in Your Life:

* LOVE:
The Special Feeling That Makes You Feel All Warm And Wonderful.

* RESPECT:
Treating Others As Well As You Would Like To Be Treated.

* APPRECIATION:
To Be Grateful For All The Good Things Life Has To Offer.

* HAPPINESS:
The Full Enjoyment Of Each Moment - A Smiling Face.

* FORGIVENESS:
The Ability To Let Things Be Without Anger.

* SHARING:
The Joy Of Giving Without Thought Of Receiving.

* HONESTY:
The Quality Of Always Telling The Truth.

* INTEGRITY:
The Purity Of Doing What's Right, No Matter What.

* COMPASSION:
The Essence Of Feeling Another's Pain, While Easing Their Hurt.

* PEACE:
The Reward For Living.